Robyn's World

Friday, April 30, 2010

Blog Hop

So from Riding the Roller Coaster's great blog, and great idea for a blog hop, I added the post below to tell a bit about me. I thought I'd add some photos too. I am so new at blogging.. my blog isn't fancy, I have no idea how and frankly school keeps me so busy there are days I'm lucky that I get my kids to all the places they are supposed to be, and get them fed and get some reading/homework done. I look forward to summer more than I can possibly say!
I'd love to meet other bloggers so I do hope someone wanders over to my site. I'd love more support from my fellow military spouses during this tough time for me.

So I have a 16 year old son, a 14 year old daughter and a soon to be 13 year old son. Oh and my best friend in the whole world my husband!

Hello again.. For the Blog Hoppers..

So.. I'm living through a 14 month long absence from my USAF husband for the first time and finding that IT SUCKS! I have 2 teenagers and 1 almost teenager and 3 cats who I adore..the cats, the kids are growing on me. I'm also a RN student and an avid bingo player..trying to figure out how to keep my sanity until June 2011!!

Oh and I live in a state where the weather is crazy..so April 30.. and it is freakin snowing AGAIN!!

So on Wednesday I played bingo in a must go( where the jackpot will for sure be won that night no matter how many numbers get called) and the prize was $15,000, oh yes.. I wanted that. So I get down to 1 number at 44 numbers called and that
(for you non-bingo players)is freakin' great! And I wait..and wait...and wait some more..until...someone else wins. Are you kidding me? How on earth was it possible for the bingo powers-that-be to let me lose? Sigh.. oh well another time.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

What a weekend

Friday it snowed like crazy, my boys skipped a campout that were supposed to go on because well my youngest just didn't want to go without his dad. He didn't like the weather so much either but I suspect dad had more to do with it. He was a bit on the clingy side for the day as well.

So Saturday I got into a WICKED argument with my 14 year old daughter. It was long and ugly. I won't go into it but it left me feeling drained and just plain awful. I didn't get my school work done yet again due to that and ongoing fall out from it. So today is it..and then I have work in the research paper and reviews for the other class that should be nearly finished but you know that I haven't started..I am just a mess this semester! It has only been a week since he left and I'm already done. I'm just done! Another week of running around is about to begin.. karate, scouts, karate then running Ryan up the mountain an hour and a half for the weekend so he can go to staff weekend. I HATE driving to Camp A. HATE IT , HATE IT, HATE IT!!! The entrench to the camp is on this road that just TERRIFIES me. It is a 1 way or room for 1 car anyway road with a cliff drop off into the river on the side. I'm so scared of falling off the side of that road. It is silly, but that little road just scares me to death.
Have to pretend to do my paper now...Thanks for listening if anyone has been reading this rambling. It does make me feel better to write it all down!

Friday, April 23, 2010

1 week down...

Well.
I have survived the first week with little to no tears with the exception of today. Today I just couldn't get it together for some reason. The kids had a snow day today.. yes, I said snow day. It was snowing like crazy and coming down in wet, heavy chucks. So weird. I am.. well I just am. I feel almost numb to my surroundings isn't that odd? I think it is.

The boys were supposed to go camping but didn't because Josh lost it about the weather and he just plain missed his dad. J. goes on every campout with him and it really hit home that his dad wouldn't be there this time. Broke my heart so I let him stay. What a softie I am. So I had the whole day to do school work that I'm so behind on.. didn't crack a book. Nope, not a single page. Why do I do this to myself? It is ridiculous really. Now I have to cram and write a crappy paper that I won't proof read because I won't have the time.
Maybe soon I will snap out of this funk.

On the bright side.. I slept last night!!! Yaay!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Still not sleeping

Ok this is pretty suckish.. I'm still not sleeping at night. I am a freakin zombie. This has got to stop. I even let my kids stay home today with questionable illnesses. I suspect the real illness was just staying up too late with a bit of not wanting to get up in the morning. But I was so tired that I let myself believe them at the time. I slept in and pretty much wasted my day. I have a MASSIVE amount of school work due this weekend. about 5 chapters to read, 1 test, 1 paper, 2 chapter reviews, and a research paper rough draft..so yeah..I need to get my ass in gear. It sucks to be this behind, and at this rate I'm pretty sure that I can pull C's, however it will destroy my GPA. I may have to take the classes again just to fix the grades. But being so damn tired, I just can't read. So now what? Its a mess.

Speaking of messes..I still feel like a mess. Almost like I'm going through the motions here but not I'm not really here. It is messed up for sure. I feel alone, abandoned, lost. Which is silly really. Yet I look around and for all intents and purposes..he has moved out. Like he has left me or something, only the Air Force made him to do it. Now I know he didn't REALLY leave me, but that is what my tired little mind sees.

Lets hope I get some sleep tonight shall we?

Monday, April 19, 2010

Sleep....

Ah.. sleep. Will I ever sleep again? At this point I am a little unsure! I am sooo tired! Getting the kids up and out the door after 2 hours of sleep was a real treat. I woke up with a headache. I even canceled my gallbladder ultrasound because I was so tired. Looking back, I probably could have done it. I don't have time to be so damn tired, I am behind in school, but I'm taking my nap today and I'm going to bingo too damn it! The rest of the week is filled with karate x twice a week and scouts and some meetings I have to attend for the surgery. Busy, Busy.. Everyone says to stay busy, but I want to just chill though. Am I weird I wonder??? Maybe delusional from lack of sleep!
Whatever.. I'm taking a nap and not feeling guilty for it at all..ok maybe a little guilt, but only a little! :)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Getting out of the House

It does help..today a great friend had me and my 2 youngest over for dinner and you know what? I had fun I even laughed several times! It was nice. I only wish I lived closer to her, she lives across town. She is great though so thanks Michelle I needed that.