Happy Birthday to me...

So today is my birthday, the first one that Jeff hasn't been around for.  I'm trying hard to put that out of my mind, but it is hard.  I miss him.  I miss him so much.  It's been only 3 months and I'm already so done.  I went and gambled yesterday and did pretty well and then got stupid and gave it all back.  I'm pretty pissed at myself for that.  I mean that was pretty stupid and I so know better.  Well hopefully I will sleep now as I finally am feeling tired.