We got back from our overnight to Cripple Creek a gambling town about an hour away up in the mountains. It was a blast. I got to play my favorite game craps. I taught it to some people J used to work with and we had so much fun. J. even played with me a first! We won about $400 between us..but gave it back this morning. In the end out of the $300 I brought I returned home with $200 so not bad for almost 24 hours of gambling! we also enjoyed spending the night without kids and enjoyed ourselves there too. ;) But in other news...
Today marks the 1 week point before he leaves and I'm so sad when I think about it. It wouldn't be AS hard if I didn't know that he will only be home for 2 days before he leaves again for a whole freakin year!! I feel like that is so damn unfair! My heart hurts at the prospect of the separation.
I love him.
Oh I do love this man..sitting across from him, my heart hurts and my eyes prickle at the huge dynamic loss we are about to have. I will and already do feel like a actual piece of myself will be missing. How many people can truly say that they are really in love with their spouse? And to be still in love after 17 years of marriage? Really? But I am. Without a doubt still in love with my man. Sigh.. it makes it hurt so much more that he has to go. It is like a jagged knife twisting in my soul.
But.. I know he will be back here and there just for a week and for work stuff but I will see him after a few months and hopefully in December. He isn't in Iraq or Afghanistan and for that I'm so grateful. I know that he will be a great commander and that he will do an amazing job. I'm so proud of him that my heart could burst at the pride I feel as his wife.