Sunday, April 18, 2010
The first night alone..
Well it is just after midnight and even though I'm pretty tired, my mind won't let me sleep. J. left this morning and I was proud that I managed to hold it together all day pretty nicely! But it is hitting me that is is only DAY ONE of 14 months!! Damn that is a loong time! Even by the end of the summer we will only be into maybe a third of the time of the deployment. It just seems like forever right now. I see bits of him everywhere in the house. His shampoo, dressers,the t-shirt he left me. Then again the absence of him is seen when I look in the closet...nearly empty on his side. It ...looks so lonely. Just like me.